New Beginnings

The last few days have been quite interesting energetically. With the Dark Moon, the Solar Eclipse, and Mercury going Retrograde in a couple of days, my thoughts are on the New Beginnings this energy opens. The last half of our year is all about creating something new. In order to achieve my new beginning, I did a water fast through the Dark Moon to help clear out the old unwanted energy. I had never done one before and was surprised at what clarity it gave me. I had a good look at what drives me, what I need and want in my life. At my strengths and weaknesses, and have come to some realizations about myself.  A couple of them are tied together.

I can be my own worst enemy. I am sure this is something many people can relate to. We all have limiting beliefs and thought patterns we absorbed as we grew up, and those we adopt from friends. You know the ones, you can’t, you won’t, you’re not good enough, smart enough, and so on! More often than not these beliefs are not what we actually believe, we want more for our lives, but we hang onto them anyway.

These limiting beliefs sit buried until we want to step outside our comfort zone. This is when I let fear

block me from doing what I want to do, and know I should do. Why do we let fear do that? Several reasons, I suppose. Perhaps we are afraid of success, failure, ridicule. Maybe we’re happy dreaming and wishing rather that actually doing.

Honestly, I thought I’d dealt with this. I thought I had cleared all my old unwanted limiting thoughts and beliefs. The reality is, we’re never really done. We may have several lifetimes worth of negative beliefs built up. Every time we reincarnate, we deal with bits of it. This time around I am conquering fear! I am done letting it stop me. Time to get organized, and get going!

Something else I learned through my fast is that, I am more competitive than I realized. I am a double Taurus, and probably one of the most laid back, go with the flow people I know. This realization came as quite a shock to me. It’s kind of amusing. Promising too, when I get a handle on the conquering fear issue, watch out world!

We all travel our path, learning the lessons we came here to learn, and imagining our dream lives becoming a reality as we go. In order to get to our dream, we have to love ourselves enough to do the work to get there. To be brave, to be strong and to not give up. Failure is only a thing if we quit. But, Self-love is sometimes easier said than done. That doesn’t mean I am going to quit!